And We Wait…

Dear Friends & Fam,

I hope everyone is doing great!!

Just a quick update – I had a CT Scan on Monday and I’m waiting to get the results back on Friday at a follow up appointment with my oncologist. This is the news we’ve been waiting for. Is the chemo working?

Having to wait a full week for news like this feels a little like riding a roller coaster that will either dump me out at the end of Track A – into a deep, dark pool of hungry shark infested waters, or Track B – into a pile of warm blankets surrounded by cute, fuzzy puppies. Yea, that may be a little dramatic but that’s how I feel.

In all reality, there is probably a Track C somewhere in the middle, but my imagination is taking me to extremes as I wait it out this week.

In other news, I start radiation on Monday, with ten days of treatments total. I’ve heard mixed reviews on how radiation affects people. My doctor says it should make me feel tired, and that’s about it.

But I have a few friends who’ve been through it and they say it’s no cake walk. Again, riding that roller coaster and not knowing what to expect… wheee!!

The key to getting through this week is to stay in the moment… don’t think about the news I may or may not get on Friday or what radiation will bring on Monday.

Can I speed up time? No. Can I change the results, whatever they may be? No. There is nothing I can do but worry… so let it go.

What I can do is focus on the good. My back pain is starting to let up and it’s amazing to not be in constant pain. That has to be a good sign for how my treatments are working! That makes it a great day!

I’ll deal with Friday on Friday, and Monday on Monday and when my mind starts to swim with the sharks, redirect it to prayers and puppies!

Have a great Wednesday everyone… I‘ll check in again this weekend. In the meantime, please send up prayers and good vibes for positive news! Thank you so much! Xoxo

Love & Blessings Always,

Jammie